Patrick Stewart on Raising Up in a Violent Home: ‘It Was Terrible’

patrick stewart It describes the experience of being raised in a violent home and attempts to raise awareness on this issue. domestic violence.

Interviewed for new ITV documentary Her Majesty The Queen: Behind Closed Doors“Domestic violence was something people never talked about,” the actor said. And that’s why I never told anyone. I kept it all to myself. “It was locked inside me and I felt shame,” according to the UK newspaper. Times.

Speaking of his own experience, Stewart, 84, recalled: “The war ended in 1945. So I was 6 when my father came home. And it was terrible.”

“The yelling was so loud because he had such a big voice,” he continued Star Trek: The Next Generation The graduate added that she “screamed at my dad to stop when he hit my mom and hit her over and over again.”

Stewart said he and his brother Trevor “were sitting on the stairs leading down from their bedroom, just behind the door to the living room.”

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And as a result, “they became experts at understanding where the shouting was going, what it would lead to, and we always knew the moment the violence would begin.”

“So we pushed the door open and ran into the room, and my brother Trevor, who was taller than me, got between my father and my mother so he couldn’t reach her,” he continued, accordingly. Times.

“And he’d scream: ‘No, no, no, please, you don’t need to protect me. I’m okay, I’m okay.’ “So I shouted at him,” he said. X-Men said the actor.

She also recalled that a female neighbor stepped inside at one point, “breaking open the door while my father was yelling, and (she) walked up to my father, pushed her arms up, raised her fists, and said, ‘Come on, Al Stewart, try it on me.’ “

Stewart added in part: “And of course he didn’t. He didn’t touch her.” Times. “He moved away. But having a past like that was humiliating.”

Her Majesty The Queen: Behind Closed Doors sees Queen Camilla Speaking to survivors of domestic abuse is an important part of royal work. She also reveals and shows her empathy when meeting women experiencing domestic violence and their families deep understanding of the issue and needed assistance for women and girls.

The film, which aims to give a voice to victims of domestic violence, is currently airing on ITV1 in the UK

If you are experiencing domestic violence, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233 or go to: thehotline.org. All calls are free and confidential. The helpline is available 24/7 in more than 170 languages.